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Day 8 - Stagnation

There is no one who finds idleness exciting. Nobody can be idle forever. In my case, this period of idleness must always be small, especially on an intellectual level. I not only enjoy thinking of new perspectives and things, I also find peace in them. I am a curious person by default, I cannot be at rest all the time, I cannot sit in one place and repeat to myself things I already know. I have to obtain and understand more!

Having worked continuously for so many days, I suddenly find myself sitting through sessions, staring into the walls. Not that the sessions are unimportant or the people aren't effective enough, it is just that I no more find myself attracted to defining and labelling my thought process. I do fully understand the importance but I also have a growing restlessness inside to start working on my teaching. Though it is not simple or easy to achieve the set goals, it is important to start on the path, lest be overcome by boredom. I am one of those who likes working rather than defining, a doer rather than definer, a practical person rather than a theoretical one.

I do not find solace in rest, it is not my way. I relax, because my body needs me to. The brain constantly demands challenges, it does not take into consideration the state of its body. I like being out there doing things, not sitting and revising what I was taught over the few days. It is imperative that I do, rather than listen and answer. Because I am a man of failures. I enjoy failing at things because it gives me something new to learn, it gives me another chance at growth. I have never found failure to be demotivating. It has always pushed me to work harder, smarter and faster. Failure is my most effective teacher because if I can learn from faults, the I have learnt every side of the issue, the right and the wrong.

Although I seek no solace in being at rest, I have to satiate my body and give it what it badly needs, a goodnight's sleep. But before I do that, I have to put my brain to rest. It's time to go out and get some air! 

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